i am just being a bitch in my house " city bitch time"
drinking way too much ,and thinking about stuff and things
not like you.......................................... im not taking care of another human being
i can hardly manage my own self today
i guess it's equally hard-not having time for yourself or having way too much time
so yeah,there is no one calling me-"mom look,mom come, mom go...."
just me sipping my cold hazelnut coffee,feeling the caffeine rush
and just feeling self centered. i can slam a door on my face to wake my self up
zap out of it"coffe bitch"
but then i have learned that slamming large objects on myself doesn't lead to great results as well.
so yeah,i go visit friends and talk to them about there life's and i find it balancing,and wonderful
but the minute i walk into my own thoughts
they just suck me in-Zbang...Shabang....Boom
it's true -its never easy being me
who ever knows me well enough will agree
plus this is a difficult moment.
and i might need time to digest everything that's been going around but the fact your in on the beach having a amazing time with your beautiful family,doesn't connect with my bitch time
so im sorry
but i hate you today
