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מדהים איך בשנייה אחת הרגשתי כאילו אני בניו יורק, התמונות שלך עם השלג הזכירו לי החורף של שנת 94, אני זוכר את
לשמחתי התזכורות שלך מגיעות מכל האגפים, ראיתי את הריאיון אתך וקראתי את הכתבה והלב שלי התחמם וניפתח עוד יותר.

אז מה שנישאר זה לאחל לך שנה טובה של חופש ויצירה
ושיר קטן שעלה בי בהשראתך , למרות שהוא לא גמור ולא מושלם, החלטתי לשחררו לעולם


על הבמה ומחוצה לה היא פשוט זורחת.
היא יפה מוכשרת ולא מתביישת גם בקרחת.
הלב שלה פתוח כמו השמיים, מעניקה חיים ואהבה כמו המים.
בשנייה אחת אפשר להתאהב, אך אם תנסה לשלוט בה לבטח תתאכזב.
כי אי אפשר לשלוט בחופש, למרות שהחיים שלה נראים לפעמים כמו נופש.

בזכותה נשים רבות נזכרות שהן נשים.
ואנשים זוכרים שבסה"כ הם אנשים.
כשהיא רוקדת הלב מרקיע לשחקים.
והמון גברים מכל העולם בתור מחכים.

כבר נאמר שבשבילה אפילו השמיים הם לא הגבול.
כי מה שאפשר לומר על אישה שהכישרון ירד עליה כמבול.

עם שיער ובלי שיער ,בלי פוזה ובלי איפור, לא מפסידה היא אף שיעור.
לומדת ומלמדת בלי מילים והכל בקצב וחיוך נעים.
לא חוסכת ביקורת ישירה, תמיד עם כבוד ולפעמים בשירה.

לא מייצגת אף אחת אפילו לא את עצמה.
מחשבתה קלה כנוצה וזה עיקר כוחה.
משתנה כמו היא כמו זיקית וגמישה כמו גומי.
בלתי ניתן לתפוס אותה אבל אפשר לחוות.
גם מאחורי מסך מרובע , היא מביאה אותי לדמעות.

קצב חייה מהיר אך רגוע.
וללא ספק מרגישים את נוכחותה בכל אירוע.
מדהים כמה אפשר להכיל בגוף אחד.
כשרון אהבה ולב רחב.
ומרחוק מרגישים שהיא יודעת להעניק מרחב

ברור שעוד ניראה אותך הרבה על המסך.
אבל יש לי הרגשה שזה לא בשביל לצבור פרסום ,הכרה או להשלים חסך.
זה החופש לחלוק את המתנה לרגש אנשים בחיוך, מילה והמון חמלה.

התקשורת משתמשת במילים כמו ניצחון והצלחה.
אבל היא יודעת שזה הכי אנושי להתגבר על המחלה.
מה עוד אפשר לאחל לאשה יפה עם יכולת ביטוי מילולי וגם פיזי
חוץ מהברכה הנדושה
טייק אית איזי

בקריאה שניה יצא לי שיר מספר מחזור

snow man

it's going to snow today

i have my snowing clothes ready

it's going to snow today,and i want the city to go white

bright

and when waking towards my home at night

i will imagine a friend holding my hand

i will imagine this friend enjoying the sight

he will hold me tithe

because i might slip in the white

white snow

he will take me home

the house will be so worm

he will sit besides me

sipping tea with ginger cookies

and when we awake to the next day -

we both feel so lucky we had this time together

to share

white

and worm

so i will imagine this friend and i shall feel he is real, like having an angel on my side

[which by the way, i always think i have:]]

chocolate

if you were a line you would be a never ending circle

if you were a flower you would be a wild lotus.

if you were a sweet ,you would be the best chocolate in town

the kind you just can't get enough of...

if you were an animal you would be a beautiful Tiger , enjoying the open sky decorated by millions of stars

if you were a book you would be the kind of book that takes you to another dimension

making the readers forget about their own troubles...

if you were a drug you would be very addictive!!!

if you were a piece of art,you would be in a museum.

mean while i can create my own picture,and capture all of this beauty in a cup of tea

drink it up, and live with it all as --- inspiration.

love me more

LOVE ME!

Love me MORE.....

Love me NOW!

Love me STRONG.

Love me - I want to FEEL it

I need to HEAR it

Can i see it?

Love me MORE.

Love me MORE!

Love me MORE!!!

NOT THAT MUCH

Love me LESS

i can't take the stress

Love me soft

Love me at night

Wait.

I can't feel your love

Is it gone???

Give it back

LOVE ME MORE

Love me NOW

Love me love me love meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Not so much

and so on.....

where the fuck are you?

so can't you just go crazy ,and come over?

can't you break the roles?

i'm waiting here trying to remember youre songs

don't you want to sing me a song?

i ate dinner with many men, it was fun

they were great

i want you

were are you?why aren't you here?

why do i miss you?

why do i have to miss you?

is it fair?

not fair at all

ufff

i told a friend about you

he said he envies my bubbling belly

and you ,you have a women waiting for you else where

a different country ,a different tongue

and she is there

waiting to fight for you're love

and i am here

now

thinking

missing

and wanting you here

if you let me...

I would love you,if you'd let me

i would touch you,till you'd melt

i could hug you there forever

and if i could ,i would swallow you inside

so you can be-a part of me

forever me

forever you

if you let me i ,i can touch you

deep and soft and very safe

touch the soul and body

set you free

and leave the door open for you to return

if you want to- i am here.

i can tell your story

i understand it all

i can guide you into youre light

and give you some of mine.

i can do all this with a smile,and with many small jokes

i can push you to a wall and kiss you all over your coat

i can and i would

if you would let me

if you would want me 2

for what ever time we have

for you

my love

Love me all the time.

you can love me because i'm very lovable

you can hug me because i smell really good

you may touch me-and see how soft and silky i am

you can read me a good night story-and see how i fall asleep and i will forever be grateful for your time and effort [until the next night arrives and then again]

you can make me tea-[never put sugar in it]unless i change my mind

you can play music with me and see how happy i am

you can watch me dance and say-"wow,i love the way you move"

you can think im really funny,and you can make me laugh,so ill know your funny too

you can say ; " my smile is the most beautiful thing you ever saw",you can even say i could have modeled smiles because of my perfect teeth.

and you can buy me milk and flowers[all white] cause i am always in need for them both

and all of this should be so much more important then any thing else. for example:

you should ignore my morning tantrums ,throwing my closet down on the floor saying-i lost my BLACK T SHIRT[when most of my clothes are black]

then when i move on to kicking the wall , then complaining my foot hurts never say- "so don't kick the wall" i think it's funny so please think it's funny too.

you shouldn't mind i forgot to call you all day long but when it happened to you i freaked out and said-"i didn't call you the past 3 days because you forgot to call me one day"

you should completely love all my x boyfriend who come visit me ,and even stay over as guests [they are wonderful people don't you want to know them?]

you should forget about my mood shifts and remember how adorable i am when i'm happy[even if it was a few months ago...or ,i can't remember when ]

it would be wonderful if you never say any thing nasty or bad to me like- "you girls..."

i am so special i am never -"you girls,or women or females"

and if you do call me you women...you will be called:"there are thousands just like you" for a month or 2

you should be happy when i'm only 10 minutes late, because you remember my clothes are on the floor so i can't find the same peer of socks and it's NOT easy for me to find the keys even though i have a special place for them,and once i'm on my way to meet you i have to go back home to pick up my phone i never remember ,please KNOW how hard it is to even get there 10 minutes late,so when i finally do ...it would be great if you could give me a look of compassion instead of wanting to bite my head off!

And when i talk about my fear of dying please don't freak out, and acedantly believe me.

and if you can- let me feel you always remember how wonderful i am [especially when i can't remember that about myself]and please make me beleive you can never fall in love with another human being and then i won't say ;

"well it's not like we will stay together forever,da...."

and you will look at me with sad eyes and say-"what else can i do to make you understand i want you?"

and ill say-"well only time will say"

and then you'll leave.

ha... knew it all the way.

no one stays.

ok,well ,so please love me forever

and love me all the time!

and no i'm not talking about my parents because even they can't love me all the time.

but YOU ,maybe you can?

just a thought

And remember-I smell like chocolate and cherry

so i might be worth all of this.

"i am alone, but i am not lonely "

i use to need the company,miss the togetherness

i felt i was missing something walking into my empty apartment

especially as i arrived home after being in other countries

why isn't there any one to pick me up in the air port?

should i have a dog or a cat? but how can i, with all the travling?

i can never get the dish washer fixed cause i work during there time table

if only someone could be here to open the door

i use to sleep on one side of the bed as if i am waiting for someone to fill the other side with his presents,but now days i sleep all over the bed never knowing where ill wake up,head over feet

i use to think it's so hard to live alone, now days i know how hard it is to live together

i don't know what it is to have kids

but i do know what it means not to have any

i know what it means to love someone

and i know how it feels not having a partner to share your love with

but i live in peace with it all

and i enjoy my full apartment

and no longer miss a worm face waiting for me in the air port

or discovering someone cooked dinner for you

i'm good

as my friend-krishnamurti said-i am alone but not lonley

Directions for a Hug.

HUG ME

now

HUG ME

but don't pinch me

HUG ME

don't touch my hair

HUG ME

and make me feel thin,and light

HUG ME

naturally,so i don't have to teach you how to hug

be good in hugging

HUG ME

but make me feel you are hugging ME,in a different way

HUG ME

and smell good while doing so

HUG ME

but not in my fat parts.....

HUG ME

and you can kiss me on my check

HUG

HUG

HUG

but no need to HUG me at night for more then 3 minutes

and hug me-but not when i'm being really serious with my actors

and hug me , but don't complain when i don't hug you back

or i might even bite

sitll hug me-even when i give a fight

HUG ME

because you love hugging me

and never give up,even thought i don't hug back as much asi need to be hugged

HUG ME

if you care.

am i being to specific?

hmmmm,oh and scratch my back! not there. think..about my back as divided numbers,so number 4 which is on my right side needs a scratch.

i don't wanna feel alone

I don't ever wanna feel alone

especially when your around

I just can't feel so alone-when your around and close

I rather be locket in a small white room,knowing I AM alone

then stand here besides you-feeling as if ,i am already in that room

say-

Can't you read my mind?

i hate living here inside

can't you break into my wall?

can't you make it all -ok?

I can't take this feeling of soloist

when we are together

i want to shove a pillow in your mouth

when you snore happily at night,and i am awake so bright....

as if there is allot of light.

I want you to hug me tithe

and kiss me good night

and hold my hand when you don't understand

and tell me-"your not alone"

and" we will be all right"

"you're my sweet dreams ,and i miss you at night

when my eyes are closet and i know yours are not"

Because i never wanna feel so alone as i did

when i shared my life with another

it scared me ,i admit.-and today my heart holds it against me

so i calm by saying: I never wanna be so alone as i was when we were together.

[Don't worry Eylon,you won't.]

LOVE ME

LOVE ME!

Love me MORE.....

Love me NOW!

Love me STRONG.

Love me - I want to FEEL it

I need to HEAR it

Can i see it?

Love me MORE.

Love me MORE!

Love me MORE!!!

NOT THAT MUCH

Love me LESS

i can't take the stress

Love me soft

Love me at night

Wait.

I can't feel your love

Is it gone???

Give it back

LOVE ME MORE

Love me NOW

Love me love me love meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Not so much

and so on.....